I went to breakfast with my dads from Jacksonville.  It felt so good to have a piece of home come and visit.  They told me about all about Jax and the people I knew back there.  I told them how things were going here with School, Work, and Tommy.

After they left, I went to work. I left an hour early and I worried because there was traffic between Kennesaw and Marietta.  I saw the accident that tore up the front and back of the two cars.  There have been a lot of accidents around, and every time I see them or hear about one, I worry about the people that I care about no matter what.  No matter if we are fighting, not speaking, anything.

I made it to work 10min early and had a good day.  I didn't trip over any signs.  One creeper was totally hitting on my and I didn't even realize it until I went to walk away and shake his hand. AWKWARD!

Work is so amazing.  The customers and my co workers.  I learn so much everyday and am constantly told how much of an amazing help I am.  The human contact feels good.

Tommy is hanging out with Adam.  The apartment is silent except for the air conditioner I just turned on.  No rap. No slamming shit around or eating loud.  No random roommate.  Silence.  Even in my head.  It feels so good.  Tranquil.

I'm going to find something else to eat and go to bed.  I'm going to dream and sleep so deep.  I'm going to wake up tomorrow, work on some homework before work, and spend the night with my man.

I really do love my life.  The ups and downs and all arounds. Goodnight!

Your depression is a self-defense of your organism and your psyche against the mistakes you make, following the absurd suggestions of the wild side of your conscience or the absurd tendencies of the under-developed human side of your conscience. In any case you have two enemies, pushing you towards craziness, since even the human side of your conscience is absurd.

There is too much craziness accumulated in the anti-conscience, the wild part of your conscience, and this is why it is schizophrenic.

The human part of your conscience was only partially developed. You have to help your brain reach a stage of total development that will increase your intelligence, if you want to use all its potential.

Translating your dreams according to the scientific method, you can prevent depression, craziness and suicidal tendencies before losing your mental health, and completely develop your personality, becoming a real genius.

Craziness prevention is depression and suicide prevention as well, since craziness is responsible for the existence of depression and all mental illnesses. The craziness accumulated in the wild side of the human brain and psyche is responsible for the appearance of all mental illnesses in the human being.

Therefore, craziness prevention is in fact more than indispensable for everyone, especially for depressed people, for people that belong to introverted psychological types and for people ready to commit suicide.

Depression is a self protection of your organism and your psyche, because you may insist on making mistakes, but you have to be stopped somehow.

Depression is a warning that doesn’t let you continue making the same mistakes and insisting on finding happiness this way.

If you live with the wrong person, work in the wrong job and live in the wrong place, you cannot be happy, even taking anti-depressants daily…  

Yesterday I wrote an article about the case of a young man that has a girlfriend without loving her, only because she loves him and he decided to “try her out”.

He was terrified with a nightmare he saw, where he was violently attacking a person that “he should love”.

In other words, he was exploding and hitting the girlfriend that doesn’t let him find the right person for him. This nightmare was a warning and a prevision.

You cannot make absurd decisions and expect to live “normally”, without being depressed like the dreamer of our example, who already has neurotic behavior.

Your depression will make you pay attention to all the mistakes you are making, exactly because you live influenced by your anti-conscience, that pushes you towards craziness all the time and that obliges you to decide living with the wrong person, doing work that you dislike, and live in a place where you feel lost, so that you may easily become completely crazy with all the deceptions of your life.

You may believe that your decisions are really the result of your own thoughts and preferences, however, you have an enemy inside you influencing your behavior and suggesting wrong decisions to you without letting you think seriously about anything.

You have to get rid of this enemy, before it completely destroys the human side of your brain and psyche through craziness.

You have also another enemy: your own under-developed, ignorant and selfish human conscience, that has to learn too much until it may be able to help you in life, instead of provoking you so many problems.

If you don’t pay attention to the warning given by your depression, you may simply accept the crazy behavior imposed by the anti-conscience, without criticizing it in order to verify its absurdity, or the behavior imposed by your psychological type, which is also totally absurd.

If you are not depressed yet, care about the meaning of your dreams without delay, so that you may easily prevent depression, craziness and suicidal tendencies now that you can.

Depending on the seriousness of your psychical problem, you may delay too much to recuperate your mental health or you may lose it for good.

Don’t let things arrive at this point!

Be prudent and prevent the worst, especially now that you have learned how dangerous, violent and evil the absurd content accumulated in the wild part of your brain and psyche is and how absurd the human side of your conscience is too, even though you believe that the known part of your human conscience is balanced and “normal”.

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It occurred to me that some of you are thinking how nice it would be to have a coach to partner with you on your fertility journey.  Being there for you through the rollercoaster of emotions, hormones, and results!   You are truly giving a gift to yourself and the process by taking that step.   Who knows, it could even affect your results!  Why? because you'll feel calmer (and possibly retain your sanity), more prepared, more informed, and supported!   If you are even thinking about it, just a tinsey insey bit, then I challenge you to get in touch to see if it is indeed the right step to take in YOUR journey.   I am available on Skype, and time zone is not a problem (we'll make a plan) !   Our initial chat is a free consultation!  You have nothing to lose, and possibly a lot to gain.   It is my passion to partner with women like you, who so often feel- overwhelmed by options, don't know their options, a little lost or confused or isolated or stressed -going through this process.  I have been there!  What I really want for you is to have the family you have always dreamed of.   Call or email me.  Go on, I dare you. (see my contact page)  We'll sit down for a virtual cup of tea and a chat.

Cheekily but lovingly yours,

Coach Louise Crooks

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I'm pretty unstylish generally, and tend to go about 6 months between haircuts, so was feeling quite pleased that I'd managed to book one in only 4 months after my last one.  Sitting for an hour and a half making small talk and reading magazines I'd never buy was an oasis of calm today, and the haircut was great too!

Coming home, I was very excited to spot the distinctive double buggy aka Bob in my hall, and it was great to briefly catch up with the Jayberspero clan.  I think I really need to use the isight to record Caleb for posterity - his accent is amazing!  There's some cheesy saying that good friends are hard to find, and I'm glad they're home!

But after Monday's challenges I have never been so grateful for my NLP skills and never so proud of myself for handling such a difficult situation as well as I did.

Katie had an accident in the playground, she feel off the monkey bars and broke her wrist. From the minute I scooped her up right through the casualty, theatre and now into recovery I have been using NLP, not only with her, but with myself.

I used trance and hypnotic suggestions to keep her calm on the way to the hospital. I used hypnosis again in casualty to guide her to turn down the pain. I used anchoring and state management to keep myself calm, centred and balanced during the ordeal of waiting and especially when the consultant informed me of the extent of the damage to her wrist. I used meta model questions to extract from the doctors exactly what was going on.

I used it all, and I've never been so grateful for those skills. Without them I would have been a mess, Katie would have been terrified and I believe her healing and recovery would be longer. Here is the full story.

Katie's Story

Shortly after Katie fell off the monkey bars and broke her wrist she started to go into shock. On the way to the hospital I used positive suggestions to get her to relax. Her breathing slowed, the pallor left her face and she started to look more comfortable. 

To help her with the pain whilst waiting at the hospital I used hypnosis and got her to ask her nerves to stop sending the pain message. I started putting positive suggestions. About 20 minutes later she is organising a game with some other children in the waiting room (ever the leader is Katie).

It took 4 hrs before the consultant saw us and looked at her x-ray.

Now I know that consultants have done a lot to get better at communication and as I'm pretty good at it I have high standards, but the way he informed us of what was going on was , well to be polite, not empowering, informative, or supportive.

He introduced himself, which was good, he'd obviously learnt to do that. Then he goes on to inform us that Katie had indeed broken her wrist (at this stage we only know it is damaged in some way) and that she will need surgery like this...

Consultant: "So Katie, how did you break your wrist?"

My internal Dialogue "oh my god, it is broken then!"

Lisa: "so it's definitely broken?"

C: "Oh yes. But one that we can potentially fix. Katie, is this your first time having an anaesthetic?"

My internal dialogue "POTENTIALLY, POTENTIALLY! what doesn't he mean POTENTIALLY? Does that mean it WON'T heal? What happens if it doesn't heal? How likely is it? Is she going to be all right? Why is he talking about anaesthetics? What does he want to do to her? Is he going to operate, cut her open? Oh my god"

Lisa: "Tell me about the break, what is the procedure? What are you proposing?"

C: "the break is in rather a nasty position, and we need to get the bones into position?"

Internal dialogue "oh my god, oh my god, what is he telling me? It sounds really serious? How bad is it? What is going on? What is he going to do to my little girl?"

At this point I see Katie's eyes getting wider and wider, she is holding her damaged wrist and moving as if to protect it from anyone touching it. I have good sensory acuity (an NLP skill) and notice. I interrupt the consultant who is saying something else incomprehensible at this time.

"Katie - look at me". I look her straight in the face. I muster all my state control to become calm and centred. I know I need to be her rock that she can rely on and trust. I find my centre. She turns her wide face to me and stares deep into mine. I see the look of pleading for me to tell her it will be all right. I keep my voice steady, serious, reassuring and steady.

"It's all right, you won't feel any pain. All they will do is put a little injection into your other hand and you will fall off to sleep. The next thing you will know is that you'll be woken up and it will all be over. You won't feel a thing; you won't even know anything about it. Just like having a sleep. OK?

Katie nods and I see her start to relax a little, she is still tense, and unsure, but has found her centre. Her breathing lowers in her chest.

Then we are on the conveyer of pre-op prep. Changing into a gown. Put on a bed, wheeled down to theatre. Every time we are alone I just keep telling her.

"This is a really common thing. The doctors fix this all the time. You can feels safe knowing they will mend your arm. You are such a good healer. You will heal from this really quickly. Your body knows how to heal this. Your body can heal this quickly and perfectly. You can just relax knowing that that is the best way to heal. Your body knows how to mend your arm. You body can fix it perfectly. Everyone is going to be amazed at how quickly you can heal your arm. Any time you hear anyone say anything otherwise that's because they don't know just how clever your body is at healing. They are making the mistake of thinking your body is like other's who don't know how to heal. But yours just knows how to heal it and can heal and it will."

And so on. She must have been bored by it, but that's part of the technique. I was using the NLP technique of planting positive suggestions and neutralising any negative ones she might hear.

I also neutralised the authority suggestions by making light of the fact that next time she saw the consultant he would be in pyjamas and wearing a silly hat. This would have taken the edge off some of his authority. Katie thought it was very funny that he would wear pyjamas at work.

Positive suggestions are CRUCIAL at this time, because when in shock, pain or even a light trance (which accidents and hospitals tend to induce) the unconscious mind is like a sponge it will absorb any and all suggestions. ESPECIALLY those from an authority figure, like say, an important looking consultant.

When anyone is in shock their conscious filtering faculties are switched off. The Unconscious mind is WIDE open to all and any suggestions.  It's essential to be careful what you say at this time because everything will be taken on as a direct suggestion. If they hear "it will take a long time to heal" their unconscious mind will do just that - make it take a long time to heal.

The manipulation went fine. Katie recovered from the anaesthetic quickly. I stayed with her all night until she was allowed home the following day. I knew she would have been fine but I was her shield against any negative suggestions so stayed.

She's home now coping with her plaster cast well and is cheerfully looking forward to going back to school and showing it off to her friends. She even said that the hospital stay was like a little holiday. Kids eh!

I am just so grateful that I was aware of the importance of positive language at such a crucial time. I am so grateful that I know how to control my state so that I could be calm for Katie. If I panic, even if I hid it, like all kids she would have picked it up and started to panic herself.

I continue to use hypnotic suggestions, especially when she least expects it.

And the prognosis? The doctors say there is a chance that she may not regain full use of her hand. And yes it is her dominant hand. But for my part I simply will not entertain any such outcome. The only future I am creating is one where she is completely healed whole and magnificent. I will keep you posted of her progress.

This experience has taught me the utter importance of understanding the mind, its effect on the body, the power of language and how essential it is to use it to help not heal.

I wanted to share this with you so that you could get an appreciation of the power of NLP. People give me a hard time for promoting NLP so much, they tell me to get off my soap box about NLP.

But, quiet frankly I have seen the positive effects of its power, and just how much it can improve people's lives too often to stay quiet about it. If you don't like NLP, you probably don't like the way it's been used, which is why I teach it the way I do.

If you want to learn to stay calm no matter what is going on around you, to communicate with your loved ones, to help others heal, or heal yourself, then get yourself onto our NLP practitioner training in October. You never know when you might need it.

After Monday's challenges I have never been so grateful for my NLP skills and never so proud of myself for handling such a difficult situation as well as I did.

Call me on 08000409115 to discuss how you can benefit from NLP.

Thinking of calming light on water...loved this day...want to keep the peaceful feeling.

It was where a 'being' called Z ruled the downstairs, never sitting, but was always stood tall and proud in trenchcoat and black contacts, his peroxide mane fixed and streaming over his otherwise shaven head.
Beyond where, outside, the most respect he could command would be a gob of spit on his back, here, one was honoured if he nodded in your direction.

It was where any manner of guy or girl could be like any manner of girl or guy - all made up to various extents of androgyny, masculinity, femininity, other, all in between and besides.

I wore make-up. I wasn't a goth. I wasn't a rocker. But I liked The Cure and I liked Metallica. And I would bound, mid conversation, from the beer garden upon hearing the bongo intro to Been Caught Stealing twelve inch by Jane's Addiction. I would freak.

I would thump all over the dance floor - all limbs flying, far and wide. I'd twirl and leap on the beat. I'd throw the left leg and right arm out and if you were in my way, sorry man, but you should fuckin' know better - that was my signature tune.

'dolph's was Tommy the Cat, and he'd do much the same but more subtle, more suave, even if it came on early from the jukebox when the dancefloor was clear.

Sí would snake sexy and seductively, sleeves held over her palms, to Lovecats. She'd share knwoing glances with me from the corners of her lovecat eyes.
The two of us fucked with Misirlou like a pair of shithot tango dancers.

Lyres was the place dreams were made, made true and broken. It was freakish like a nightmare and blissful as the end of the rainbow.
They used to sell t-shirts; "I lost my virginity at Lyres."

I'd get too drunk. I'd sit alone in the beer garden and stare. I'd just stare and ignore anyone who said anything to me. Because I was torn up inside and misunderstood and fucked up - even more than these people. More than the freaks. More than the goths. I'd never fit in. Alien.
Then I'd hear those bongos and race off. I'd return four minutes later, gasping for breath and guzzling on water, smiling all over the place and sit and light a cigarette.
And I'd stare out at the freaks and the punks and the goths and the rockers and at my friends and thank fuck for Lyres.

(Two bottles of beer later, and the guy who'd been taking out his 'rage' as a 'rat in a cage' on the dancefloor, is now Jim Morrison, swaggering across the 'floor to L.A. Woman blasting out cool as fuck over the heads. He'd morph into Satan himself as the Stones' Sympathy... faded in.)

But those pesky butterflies are still here and flapping about in my tummy. I'm feeling physically better today though, probably because I forgot to take my little white pill this morning. :oops:

I'm a bit jumpy and slightly hyper - I think that may be because I'm not sleeping particularly well. To be honest, I don't actually mind feeling this way. It means that when I do force myself to concentrate I actually get quite a lot done - I seem to work faster this way. But the downside is that my thoughts are racing and it seems like the world is going round too fast, like there's too much visual information for me to process. Weird.

I have two hours left at work and then I can go home. I wonder if the jumpy feeling is here because I forgot my tablet this morning. Can it have such an immediate effect? Even when the dose is so small? I don't know. I'm not even sure if the medication is doing its job yet. Oh well, one step at a time.

My dad is on holiday at the moment but he's still keeping in touch by text. I got a text from him at 11.30 last night saying that he was worried about me, he had a feeling something was wrong. I reassured him that I'm fine but there is some stuff I want to chat to him about when he gets back at the weekend. He then jumped to the conclusion that I had lost my job! He put two and two together and made about twenty. I calmed him down. It's good to know that we are close enough to be able to tell when someone's struggling, though.

Anyone got any ideas about how I can try to calm my twitchiness?

PS. I'm really not sure about this template. Reminds me of candyfloss. But the Wordpress templates are either really boring or really complicated - this is neither, so I suppose I'll give it a go for a while before retreating back into familiarity.

PPS. I've spent the last hour wondering why I have a headache. I've just realised that it's because I've been clenching my teeth all day. Duh.

Photograph by NigelCallender

What life in waves,
what power
to rise and crush,
and clam again.
What façade this sea,
What trickery.

- Kaosar (Raatkiranii)

This weekend turned out to be one of the best in a long time. No drama, no worries, and lots of fun. We spent Sunday at Tim and Sandra's for Allison's birthday, and then I went with the crew out. I haven't laughed so much in so long.

It felt good, and I am looking forward to more.

Letting go is easier than I thought.

I am most myself when I decide to be who I am, regardless of how other people decide to be.

so when someone is mean to me, unkind, tells lies, I still decide to be who I am.

So I responded calmly. 

I do not raise my voice when they shout and wave their arms around. It's not my way.

I challenged the lie. I state that I found a particular thing unkind.

But I don't 'get even'.

or maybe I do? because maybe getting even, or even winning, is not letting that person control who I am, how I behave, or who I become.

because of who this couple is - the strength of their character, their love for Jesus and their unwavering heart for others - it was one of the most enjoyable weddings i've ever attended. i was privileged to be there with my camera.

last image of the day

as i was going through the images (which you can find by clicking here) i was struck by some of the quieter moments; these are the kinds of images i always gravitate to, but never have the opportunity to feature. since it's always tough to distill an event like this down to just a few images for the blog, i thought this mini theme seemed appropriate.

more images after the jump.

Today's Keyword

within Museum paintings

"rectangles, rectangular "

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]]> http://dorazsays.wordpress.com/?p=560 Sat, 30 Aug 2008 21:07:12 +0000 Doraz http://dorazsays.wordpress.com/?p=560 No matter what you say to me, when you " smile" things do not look so bad. I think the natural response a person should have to anything that is said to them by anyone, should be a " smile." Even if the person is yelling at you for something you did that they did not like, look right at them before you speak...and " smile." It will start to get the other person less agitated with you...believe me, it works! Resist the urge to yell back at the person. Stop...reflex, and "smile" before you answer them. Keep your voice level set to about a 4 not a 10. If you respond with a calm voice, it also will calm down the other person. Believe me, it works. People do not like to have to raise their blood pressure if they do not have to. They prefer to be cool, calm, and collected. So, give it a try. What have you got to lose. Change the mix when you deal with someone. Do not let them see a " smile" coming their way!

Believe in Yourself!
Dorazl