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Some like to be totally dominated during sex. They like to cede all control to their partner. This includes being told what to do, being called names, and servicing the other person fully. The degree of any of these activites varies with each person. However, the overall tendency is to submit to the other.

Rape fantasies are the best example of one who wants to be taken. Naturally, not all go to this extreme. A milder form of the same idea is one who fantasizes about being taken without warning by someone she consents to. She wants to be used for the other persons pleasure. Notice how the act of being taken is submissive by the fact that the other person is the one who determines when and where. This fantasy can include violence or not depending on the individual's desire.

So what do these fantasies tell us? They let one know that she desires ceding control, at least in the area of sex. She wants to be taken and thoroughly used by another for his pleasure. This is where her pleasure is derived. Subs who live this lifestyle usually give their entire sexually being to her Dom. This is where He owns her. Of course, many transfer this to other areas of life. The Dom might be in control of what she does with her time. He might reign over how and when she handles the household activities. The possibilities are endless.

So, if you find that you regularly have the feeling of wanting to be taken sexually, you might want to explore your submissiveness. Many have found the only reason they never acted upon it is that they were not with people who were dominant enough. Consider your feelings when you consider being totally defenseless against another; that he can have you any way he wants. Is this something that sounds wonderful to you? This might uncover a totally different life for you.

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Sam, how I wish that I had started blogging a long time ago. That may have allowed you to see my single post sooner, and you could have offered your vast insight into the issue at hand before I came to my current crisis. It is so obvious now that you have pointed it out after reading one entry into my life story that you have the ability to ascertain the thoughts and motives of people you have never met, and you also can glean the entirety of my relationship issues from a few minutes reading.

Now, for the subtitles for the sarcasm impaired.

Look, Sam. If you had read the blog you took the time to comment on, you would have seen that I had discussed many of the things that had been building up. If you had a reading comprehension level higher than  an autistic ape, you would have seen that the birthday being forgotten was the straw that broke the camels back. If you had gone back and read past posts regarding this, you would have seen some of the issues that have brought me to my current state. You would have been able to see that I have spent years giving and hoping that the issues would be resolved and worked out.

But it is so much easier to assume that I am ending a relationship over a forgotten birthday. So much easier to berate me for being selfish when I have been precisely the opposite to a truly selfish person for years.

In closing, Sam, I offer you a sincere and heartfelt STFU, fucktard.

How to Get into a Top UK University Even If You Don't Have the Right Qualifications

If you have a strong desire to study at a UK university, but do not have the necessary qualifications, this short article describes the perfect route for you.

The Way In

Many universities provide a training course called a Foundation Year. The Foundation Year provides essential preparation for a chosen course of study and also covers areas such as IT skills, maths and numeracy, academic and studying methods and communication skills.

Some Foundation Year courses provide English language preparation, to ensure your English is up to the required academic standard. Most Foundation Year programmes have a minimum language skill requirement, although many universities provide English language training.

A Foundation Course provides you with all the basic skills you need to gain access to a UK University course. Many Foundation Courses even guarantee you a place on the degree course you are aiming for, provided of course that you achieve the required standards in the Foundation Year.

You should definitely consider a Foundation Year if you do not have the necessary qualifications to gain entry to a degree course.

Typical Entry Requirements

Foundation Year entry requirement vary from university to university, so you must find out what is required at the university you are considering. However, there are some basic requirements:

* Most Foundation Year courses require you to be at least 18 years old.

* You must be able to prove that you have completed Secondary education in your home country.

* English - The English language requirement is likely to be at least IELTS 5.5 or TOEFL 525. Some Universities provide English courses.

* Maths - You should have the equivalent of at least a Grade D in Mathematics at GCSE level.

* You must of course have a strong desire to succeed in your chosen area of study and any evidence of your desire will be very helpful in your application.

* Some 'life experience' may be required for certain courses.

What Can You Study?

Foundation Year courses are available in an very wide range of disciplines including:

- Business, Marketing, Accountancy
- Law
- Social Science, Humanities, Arts
- Hospitality, Consumer Technology, Leisure
- Science and Engineering
- Information Technology, Computing
- Food and Health
- Joint Honours Programmes

A Foundation Year is often organised into course units, designed to prepare you for your intended course. Some units are mandatory, others optional, many will be specified by the degree course you are preparing for.

Foundation Year Mentoring

Some Universities offer a Foundation Year mentoring scheme. A mentor is a volunteer who offers confidential help and guidance based on their experience. The mentor relationship can be very helpful.

How Do You Apply ?

First you should decide which degree you wish to study at University.

Then you should identify the University or universities offering a Foundation Year course that is the appropriate preparation for degree you have chosen. The

Then you need to apply for a place on the Foundation Year through the University & Colleges Admissions Service (UCAS). This is the university applications processing organisation in the UK and all applications for university places, including Foundation Year, go through UCAS www.ucas.ac.uk

Summary

A Foundation Year is all about giving you the chance to gain a place in a English University. For many it is a second chance – the chance to develop, the change to get a degree, the chance to get on that first rung of the ladder to success.

About The Author Tony Radford Manchester Metropolitan University offers a very successful and substantial Foundation Year programme and welcomes applications to courses from overseas students. Click http://www.mmu.ac.uk/international/courses/foundation.php here for full inform

Seputar zodiac: Tosh! "kita zodiaknya sama ya, sagitarius... wah Cip.. hati-hati jagain nih aries-ku". Seperti keyakinanku juga, dia berpendapat bahwa orang Sagitarius cocoknya dengan orang Aries. Temanku, Cip, dia berbintang Leo, menurut SG (sama seperti keyakinanku selama ini) ketiga bintang ini memang kecocokan dalam satu hubungan, entah persahabatan atau percintaan. Aries - Leo - Sagitarius.

Aku menerawang jauh, seperti melihat refleksi diriku 8 tahun ke depan, akankah aku seperti dia? Masih bisa punya banyak waktu ngopi-ngopi bareng teman-teman, masih bisa merasakan cinta dan terlebih lagi saling sayang dengan pasangan. Semakin kucermati gaya bicara dan polah tingkahnya, makin  aku seperti berkaca di cermin masa depan. Kadang aku tertawa dalam hati, mungkin nanti 8 tahun lagi kalau aku bertemu dengan kaum muda lainnya, aku pasti masih seramai dia bercerita bahwa jaman muda dulu aku punya banyak teman, memang suka tantangan dan santai menjalani berbagai hal.

Ada banyak hal yang membuatku ingin seperti dia, awet muda, sukses dan masih bisa menjalin hubungan baik dengan pasangan. Tapi ada juga harapan lain yang semoga tidak terjadi padaku saat melihat hubungan mereka. Aku hanya tidak mau 8 tahun lagi hidup terpisah dengan pasanganku sekarang. Malah aku mau 6 tahun lagi semua rencanaku sempurna. Dia menyelesaikan gelar profesinya dan ikut denganku disini melewati hari-hari bahagia bersama. Meskipun dia seorang aquarius tapi aku yakin 100% bahwa nantinya dia akan menjadi pasangan hidupku.

Well, for both of my sista, SG & KD, you are my inspiration. You remind me that the distance isn't a matter for keeping the love still a live. Ku doakan semoga hubungan kalian langgeng ya...

What do you do when you want to enter into marriage with the man you love and yet you dont want to leave your parents..?

What do you do when you are happy and confused at the same time? What if your heart beats at a rapid rate each time you think of having to leave your own home and move in with someone else within another 5 day?! OMG! 5 days!!! Just a mere 5 days and I'm married!

I'm getting really worried. I have not been able to slim down as I wanted to.. I don't wanna leave my parents and sister and family.. I don't want to leave my own home and my freedom.. I don't want to lose my independance and become responsible for another person too.. I don't want to have to take care of anyone else other than me yet!!!!

I want to remain where I am..    ...   I am yet a fledgling, having not seen the world in its true colours.. but having to fly just because I look big enough to be able to take on the responsibility..

Can I? Will I?? ... O God.. Must I????!!!  A whole different person who is a separate entity from myself.. A whole different family whose habits, characteristics, mannerisms, opinions, and thinking is a world different from that of mine!

I don't want to go.. I don't want the hours to fly by and I don't want the days to fade into nights and yet again bloom into another bright day!!!

I want to stay exactly where I am.. But I cant.. Can I? I love him. But, I love my present life too. I don't want things to change..

I wanna have my freedom forever!!!

Not fair on me
But I blame myself for fucking it up
I want to kill myself
I want to kill myself.

There's nothing I can do
But wait and watch all this fall
To pieces, to ashes
Forget we were ever together

If there's nothing I can do
Then I should give up, right?
Getting over you...
Means you will never come back.

I can't move on.
Trying not to fret, not to cry
Trying not to think of you.
Trying to think of a way for you
To get over your issues.

I just don't give up easily...
On you.

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So this is the first night I start not talking to you.

I really don't know what's in store for me. I mean should I go all the way to ask her why she doesn't love me. Why feelings for me doesn't come naturally to her? These are the questions I wanna ask her for a long time, but I don't want to hurt her. Now, it's hurting me more, I really don't know what to do. Do I have a choice? I guess no. I am just so addicted to her that I can't loose her. But, the thing that bothers me is that this addiction doesn't change into something called possession. Also, I don't know whether this love will change into hatred. I just hope not!

Does this make sense? Not to me. It has to be a psychological thing. Alwaysknewwedbefriends is so right when she said that she doesn't think there is any hope that he will be anything I need (even superficially for attention only). She hit the nail on the head.

The thing is...I know this. It wasn't a shock to hear it. Those thoughts are all in the back of my head. I'm a smart girl who usually NEVER lets anyone take advantage of me and my emotions. I think the issue is that I like to be in control and I have had no control over this situation from the very beginning. I lost the control right away.

I actually haven't had total control of my life in to months (as of this Thursday, 7/11). I still have no control over the direction my life is going and I can't take it. I have no control of GI GUY's behavior, no control of when my divorce will be finished up, no control of when my home will sell, and no idea where my life will take me. I like control. I live my life in a controlled manner. I'm very particular about every decision I make and right now I'm OUT OF CONTROL.

I think I have let the terrible things that have happened to me the past 10 months of my life come out in and center around one person who was only in my life 6 weeks (forget that fact that he and I were friends for 12 years). I know it's not GI GUY specifically that is making my heart hurt - it's the entire situation I've been going through! But it came out looking like it was all about him when it's not all about him (he's part of it but it's not all about him).

Tonight I admitted out loud to CapricornSoulSister and ICan’tBelieveHowAlikeWeAre that the entire problem I've been having with the way things went with GI GUY was that 1) I wasn't in control of the situation and 2) it's basically crushing my own ego ---> and I can't take that. After my impending divorce I guess I was looking for complete and total attention from someone and I got some attention but now how I planned.

My ego is suffering a blow because of the fact that I couldn't make this guy so crazy about me, that he would be head over heels for me, and so smitten couldn't think of anything else but me. It didn't work. I guess I was the one who ended up not being about to think about anything else but HIM! Ughhhh, I guess my "plan" backfired on me and now all I am left with is more loss because of it!

I am pretty much aware of that fact that it's NOT GI GUY specifically but the idea of any guy that I wanted complete attention from and only got 40% and I couldn't CONTROL the situation like I wanted. I couldn't make him behave like I wanted to. I am well aware that I am a control freak and this comes down to not being about to get exactly what I wanted.

This is a large revelation (well maybe the answer was hiding in the back of my mind all along) but only came out tonight when I got upset about the fact that GI GUY had logged into Myspace Thursday and today (which means he had internet access twice already) but never took the time, yet, to reply to my last email from this past Sunday. It made me so upset tonight that C.S.S. and I.C.B.H.A.W.A. could see it on my face for an hour when I discovered that Myspace showed a login date of today and he had updated his page with his status and his address at the base in case anyone wanted to write him! I guess he's looking for attention from people as much as I am. Can't fault that guy for that!

While I sat there, with my friends tonight, so disturbed and upset, it came to me. I am so mad that things didn't go my way when I had planned them all so differently...the last 6 weeks he was in town were supposed to be all dreamy and fun. But instead were sometimes fun but mostly disappointing. I imagined so many other scenarios but they never panned out.

So...conclusion to this is...I'm glad I realized it's not GI GUY specifically causing my turmoil. It's the loss of control over everything in my life (divorce, selling my home because I can't afford it on my own, taking care of the house on my own, shaky stability at my job, anxiety getting worse, and GI GUY is a part of it...he doesn't get off the hook with my revelation because he still has done me wrong).

I wonder where this revelation will bring me?

There are so many dating sites out there, hundreds if not thousands, how do you even begin to decide where to register and start your online dating experience?

You could just pick one at random, create a profile, and sit back and wait for the other members to beat a path to your email inbox. Who knows, you could get lucky and it might work out first time. But even a tiny bit of investigation beforehand could save a lot of time and frustration!

The trick is to be prepared. You probably wouldn’t go off to buy a new car and start by trawling around dealerships at random, you would already have an idea as to what sort of car you want – how big, how fast, how much money you had to spend, and so forth. Based on these criteria you would have a good idea of which car showrooms to visit to find the right sort of vehicle for your particular needs. So the first question to ask yourself, is what do you want out of a dating site? Sounds obvious – a date! But what sort of date? Are you looking for a serious relationship possibly leading to marriage? Or are you after a casual partner and you’ll see where it leads? Or perhaps you just want some uncomplicated fun. The good news is that among the myriad of services out there on the web, there is something to cater for every requirement. Some sites will suit all tastes, but there are many that specialise, and the more specific you are about what you want, the better your chances of finding it.

Before looking at the sites on offer, think about how you will write your personal profile. Jot down a paragraph or two about yourself, your interests, and your hopes for a partner. Then write a few words about what you are looking for in a potential dating match. Doing this offline will help you structure in your own mind what sort of date you are looking for, and then when you go and look at some dating sites, you’ll easily be able to pick out those that offer the best chance of providing what you want. The added benefit of course is that when it comes to filling in your profile online, you will be prepared and wont be sat in front of your screen lost for words. Instead your profile will read in a very natural and honest way.

I would always recommend choosing at least two sites to register with and put your profile on, after all, they are almost all free to start with – you only need decide if you want to pay when and if someone of interest turns up and you want to make contact.

Websites like The Dating WebReview can also save you time. The reviews will quickly give you an idea about the services each dating site offers, and whether they specialise.

Choosing an internet dating site isn’t difficult. In the end it comes down to finding one that you enjoy using. After all, if it appeals to your taste, then you already have something in common with the other members.

About The Author Sara Blackmoore is a relationship counselor and regular contributor to http://www.dating-webreview.com. She lives in London, England with her husband and two children.

So as the days passed and it was soon becoming time to make a decesion my baby told me, yes I will move, so as we called the movers and arranged everything, it was kind of sad to leave our place, we had so many memories there, that we kept close to our hearts, as we flew down there, we were excited to see her mother and sister, as our first day there we visited with family then we went to find a house, there was a nice one two story house with a pool, and hot tub, just like we wanted, so we bought it and then started to move in, as her mother came to see the house she really liked it, now we had to admit that my wife's sister had a nicer house but eh it was ok a house is what you make it,

I had to go in a couple of days to my job that had transfered me down to where we are now, so as I was doing that my wife, with her sister was arranging the house the way they thought it would look the best, now when I got home it was a beautiful site, flowers a very nice lawn, and everything in its place, as we enjoyed our first night in, we called over my wife's sister and mother, and shared good times, truly an inspirational moment, so that night after the family had left, we sat back and looked at our new home, there were so many things to discover, and to do around the place where we lived now,

So my wife turned to me and said baby I love you, and I said well I love you too, I hope your not mad at me, I said to my wife, she said why would I be mad at you, well we have moved again, and I know that moving a lot is a strain sometime, she said its not a problem as long as I am with you, I am fine with wherever we go, as my wife and I looked at our new bedroom, it was so nice with a television in the front of the room, and a nice hallway with other such features, electric stove, and electric almost everything, so it was a very nice house, as we settled in to watch television we slowly drifted off to sleep as I rolled over, I almost fell out of bed, my wife caught me and pulled me onto the bed, she said babe stay closer to me,

You see my wife said to me, she said babe if you ever wanted to have you know, I said you know what? She said you know sex we could, I said no thats alright, she agreed with me,

Now don't get me wrong, sex is a beautiful thing but it can only be beautiful when two people are willing, my wife clearly agreed, I told my wife personally, I said hunny, it would make me feel awkward and uneasy if I had sex with you, she said why would you feel that way, I said because I look more at you as someone I love, and admire to the fullest, and just want to be close to, She and I agreed that just being close to eachother was a sexual experience for both of us, and didn't need to go any further, so as we went back to sleep, we had a pleasant evening wrapped up in each others arms, and just peacefully resting, and hearing the night sounds,

Myself; Yourself Official Website

6 July 2008
01:00:12 AM

Excited. Overjoyed. Sorrow. Overwhelmed. Furious. Hopeful.

Watching Myself; Yourself really left me a whole world of emotions that I have never indeed experienced for a long time. This anime deserves to be on one of the top.

My thoughts after watching the first episode and after watching the last episode really ARE different, and I mean, WAY TOO DIFFERENT.

The anime reminds me a lot of things about my past, not to mention the characterization and the looks of the characters. Anyway, what's really striking here is the story and the plot. If it hadn't been for all the twists and turns of the story, it wouldn't have had the impact it made, not only to me, but I'm sure to you too.

I'm sorry I haven't got any screen caps of the highlights of the anime. I was too carried away since the first episode. Which means, you really have to watch them to understand what I really mean.

I'm very grateful that I have encountered such a wonderful anime, the kind that I like, which almost has the same characteristics with the ones I have watched before.

A great story of friendship, tragic betrayal, endearing loyalty, loving family, not to mention what really makes a family, realization of one's self and the realization of what one has to harness still, overcoming troubles in the past and looking forward into the future, looking back to what others have done, false belief, corrupted minds, hidden emotions, and lastly, commitment and the choice to love and for love. There's still more that words undeniably can't express, which will make you want to know more.

But I warn thee, that watching the closing seconds of the final episode will really make you infuriated. I expected a lot to happen but thanks to the amazing yet horrible cliff-hanger, it left me really want to explode! To ask.. But I think that is a great way of saying, "No matter how it will turn out, I'm sure you knew."

A lot of really memorable lines have been said and I am hoping that I could find more of such kinds. Watching things like these makes me forget the present state that I am. It brings me to a whole new world where anything is possible and the possibilities are endless. But what I liked most about it is that I can really relate to the stories told by them. It's a form of consolation to myself; that no matter what happens, a silver lining will appear from the dark clouds.

It is just fitting that the title is Myself; Yourself. It couldn't have been said better by Nanaka-chan. (If you want to find out what she said, then watch it.) Obviously, the title Myself; Yourself does not only refer to Sana-kun and Nanaka-chan, but to each one of us and all the people that we have met and will meet.

The opening and ending themes couldn't have been chosen any better. It best suits the anime, as the music of Nanaka-chan resonates in my head, and so does her hardships and how she was able to get over it and live with what was written, along with her friends.

My musical performance for tonight is the first tune I ever composed. This tune took a long time to complete. In between, there were many fun and happy times. And there were many sad times as well. I met many people. Separation. And then reunited. This tune contains all those feelings. Listen, Myself; Yourself.

Overall: 10/10. No, it's not an exaggeration. It's just the way it is.

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♀?♂  Men see friendship differently. Women don’t fit a man’s mold of pure friendship, except when they are not sex targets.

♀?♂  Men treat women according to what they appear to be—sex object, slut, lady, sloppy, neat, pretty, immaculately groomed, careless, desperate, disposable.... That is, she’s responsible for the respect with which she’s treated.

♀?♂  Men treated as sex targets by females learn that all women have little else to offer. Let the fun and irresponsible games continue. Visible groupies are more significant than unseen bed post notches.

♀?♂  Modern female fidelity is questionable to men, because so many women sacrifice themselves at the altar of sexual freedom.

♀?♂  More than sex, men crave appreciation for who they are and what they do. If not their wife, however, sex works just fine for today—thank you very much.

♀?♂  One major facet of a man’s sense of significance rests upon not having to face men who have bedded his woman.

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Personally, My favorite accessory is a riding bat. This is a simple device that is used by those who ride horse. The animal is struck by the rider with this tool to get it to move at a faster pace. In essence, this is how the rider speeds the horse up.

For those unfamilar, it is similar to a riding crop. The difference is that the end has a tongue. This is the part of the tool which slaps the animal. The length of the device can be 18" to about 30". For me, I use both a 24" and 18" bat. The 24" gives a nice slap on the back and ass. At the same time, the 18" is ideal for nipple torture or slapping of the pussy. I find the shorter length offers more control while pinpointing my strikes.

These devices enhance the sexual experience. It is amazing how many women like the slap of the bat against their skin. Done proplerly, this will not cause pain, but rather, awaken the sensation within the body. The stinging will be momentarily heightening her pleasures. I like to hit her repeatedly for a count of five which will give her maximum pleasure without reaching the level of pain.

A word about nipple torture, my experience is that women will either love this or hate it. Even some pain sluts that I have owned find this to be too much. This is a personal matter individual to the person. Test it on her but back off is she doesnt like it. I have yet to find one who "learned" to like it. She either does or does not.

At the end of the day, I believe that you cannot beat the flexibility and uses of a riding bat. It is a simple device available at most stores where equine supplies are sold. Also, one can become adept at it in a short period of time. Finally, the amount of force used on impact make it the ideal device when dealing with one who is pain averse to the one who loves pain. Both can be satisfied with the same accessory.

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This lectures for Spouse Non-Monetary Rights - discusses topics like
- Treating spouses with justice,
- Treat them with kindness,
- To keep their intimate relationship private and to ignore their shortcoming.
- Not permitting her to visit her family/friends, allowing her to visit the masjid and attend
lectures/khutba.
- Not to curse her or her family.
- Not to hurt the feelings and call her with the best names she likes.
- To safeguard from corruption and not to show jealousy.
- Prophet (pbuh) is the best example and how he treated her wives.
This talk was conducted at the ISI - Islamic Center of Irving,TX.
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The whole day of the party I was worried about going. I called Mommabear at least 3 times throughout the course of the day and told her that my body wants to go and is FINE with going to the party but my brain is not. Or it's like I have angel of happy, good, fun times on one shoulder and the ANXIETY-PANIC-FORCE-YOU-TO-FAINT devil on the other shoulder. The devil overpowers the angel 9 out of 10 times.

Of course Mommabear exclaimed immediately that I better get to the counselor (which she has been saying for 10 years) but then she also said there is no reason not to go to the party and I better not stay home!

Well, I didn't stay home. I went. Strangely I didn't feel one ounce of panic or anxiety while I was driving, walking to the party from the car, or when I got to the party. There was only one second when I felt nervous for just one moment and that was when I crouched down for a second and my sprained ankle had a sharp pain run through it. I sat down right away and I was okay because the pain did not increase (luckily)....but imagine it did??

Well, let's not imagine what would happen if the pain increased...that's what I NEED TO DO. I need to stop pre-worrying about things. If they happen...they happen. I can't pre-control the situation and I can't make myself upset in advance.

I'm sure if I went to see a counselor that's what they would tell me and try to teach me how to deal with. My problem is that I really don't want to talk to someone. I want to just live my life NORMALLY without having to go to see someone every week, or 2 weeks, or month. I'm even willing to take medication but I do not want to sit and talk to someone. I told Mommabear this on Friday and she said I need to talk to them along with if they gave me medication. She said I have things I have to work out internally and that's what they would be there to help with.

Of course I am stubborn and I childishly said to her that I am willing to take medicine and I want it to cure me of my anxiety...yes folks, I want a little miracle pill. Don't they make those? They must!

I'm mad at myself today for staying up soooo late last night that I couldn't get up until 12:30. But you know me. I hate going to sleep at night. So I stay up and work on my blog, my hobby, and putz around the computer all night while listening to music. Then when I'm so tired that I'm falling asleep in my desk chair then I go up to bed and pass out immediately.

Late last night I left a voicemail for GI GUY on his cell but then this morning I got a message back from the cell provider saying the voicemail did not go through. I don't understand why unless it as to do with them not having cell service right now...who knows. But the point is that I left a message for him. I wasn't ever going to do that...I was going to wait for him to reply to my email from last Sunday and take it from there but I couldn't help it. I just wanted to so I did. I'm not playing games I decided. If I want to call then I will. If i want to write an email then I will. If I want to write 10 emails then I will do that as well! I won't sit here and wonder if it's a "sign" that my voicemail didn't go through. It's NOT. It just MY LUCK.

I DO hope he gets some some internet time this weekend and replies to my last email. I guess I need to understand how I want to behave with the whole situation going forward. I need to decide what will work best for me.

So, to summarize...I stepped out of my recent issues with needing to be in the comfort zone, I survived perfectly fine, I don't like to go to sleep at night and I wasted my whole morning sleeping and sitting in my PJ's on the computer ----> but I'm okay with it.

Im sitting here again
Another Sunday morning
Trying to figure out just who to be
I cant keep going on like this
Ive got to break away

Whoah, whoah
Everything Ive said is over
Whoah, whoah
I cant take this any longer
Whoah, whoah
I need to get out of this zone
Whoah, whoah

I hope you see where Im coming from
Its time to make a move
Change my fate
Let go of all the things that feed my complacency
Dont wanna be a wannabe

No more wasted days anymore

Comfort Zone - Everyday Sunday

(I never heard of them before but the lyrics went well with how I was feeling.